Monthly Archives: June 2008

I just found out that as a Christian,I should not be griping (complaining endlessly). A verse in a poem from Our Daily Bread reads: “When you start griping, you should count your blessings.”

I certainly cannot say I have treated them very well, I would have been their butler if I really did. However, I would say I have thought for them, sincerly. I cared for their opinion and feelings. I have respected them as my friends and apartment-mates. It is sad to say I have not been treated in a way I hoped to be. My feelings were brushed aside for personal gratification and comtempt.

Now I could only look to Heaven for redemption, and to take some matters into my own hands, as I lack the leverage to confront them. There is no way I could have dealt with this matter differently.

I shall no longer gripe. What they did was just a human instinct of looking out for themselves, and what I do will be just as human. No hard feelings,      friend.

It is not a dash, it is a marathon. It is not a dash, it is a marathon. I still live to fight another day, and with luck I will be ahead for once.

I should not be mulling over how I was kicked in the back, I should reorganize and make progress once more, to strive to be ahead in the future.

Knowledge is the key. Knowledge.

OMG, when I thought I was well under way, I got torpedoed ! All I can say is I trust too much in friendship and it ultimately backfired on me. I would certainly do differently if I was him, but sadly he turned his back on me. Please do not be as folish as me to actually trust in your friends.

What is the world becoming into, that I have to utter these words?

Some might agree that, it seems that movies are a parody of life, and sometimes, life is a parody of movies.

We see people on the screen laughing, crying, thinking, reasoning, making meaning out of their lives in the movie, but it seems that it all belongs in the script and the script is, essentially, just a story. Never once have I imagined that someday reality plays out just like a movie.

The main reason we differentiate reality with a story is that in reality, we are left to our own devices, while astory character has the help of the all-powerful writter. How I hope that we have the help of a “writter” in our real lives.

So should we actually follow what movie characters do in a particular situation considering they are actually fictitious personalities?

My, not perfect, but somewhat harmonious life in the US has dissipated in a matter of weeks. The fellowship turned in onto itself when I thought we were still together. Suddenly I realize I cannot hold back the pieces. There are no pieces left to put back. Self-centeredness and self-fulfillment have ground our cooperation into dust. It only took one block to give way for the building to fall, and it was a block too much.

What is it with these jittery blocks? What do they want from the other blocks that have put up with all sorts of situation but still stayed where they are? Do they enjoy seeing something they have builded up together crumple before them? Do they derieve happiness from others’ miseries? They had a responsibility to each other! Where is justice when a ruly block suffers because of an unruly block’s lousy wimp? Where the heck is justice when another block made arrangments to keep the building standing but now has to leave because the unruly block turn the tables on every block yet again ?!

Will these people ever grow up? Look around, the world does not exist only for you! If you are not happy with something, then for Heaven’s sake do something about it! Does it help to whine aloud of how you are unsatisfied? Just take the initiative to make a change and drop the act of threatening people with discontinuing cooperation! We live on this planet together, and I believe that together is not just a word, it represents people,as a whole, that has consideration for each other.

We always see movie characters’ lives fall apart, and we see them rising up again, though all perirls and hardship, to lift their head high again, to take a step foward once more. Could we be that character in our lives? Could we dream together with the movie characters for a better tomorrow? Could we follow our hearts and not our head and still have the perfect ending a movie has?

Unfortunately I am not desired as an employee, thus I am sadly unemployed with five weeks of free time. It is also feeling quite like Malaysia since the temperature is around 30 to 32 degrees Celsius in the noon. I should be studying for the P paper, but I feel too lazy for it.